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went to tianli's hse early this morning to discuss about chalet stuff.
will buy all the stuff on chalet day itself.
will split into different groups and get e stuff.. (:

money's the problem):
cant seem to get money from some of the guys k.
tried to go their hse just now, but didnt in the end.
we're too busy to go around like that. ):
hope they'll be nice to coorperate with us and give us the money on time.
thanks to all female sqdmates who paid for some of the other squadmates(:
and of course, a round of applause for jovi& zhiliang for being the first two guys to pay k. :D
surprise yea. its zhiliang:D

went to lot one with jingxian and tianli.
got bubble tea from sweet talk. the auntie there got AP lor._.
and she put super lot of honey into my honey milktea k.
and didnt stir. ):
lol. i sound so complain-y. :/
went to lib after drinking, and got 5 books.
im forcing myself to read english novels yea.. (:
went home after borrowing books.. (:

i know yall dont like us calling yall, in fact, we dont like calling yall either.
we even go to the extent of going up to your doorstep to collect the money, so what else are you expecting from us? i dont want to say all these but it's just too much to take. i dont know if yall even feel a little guilty, letting us do all the job. i hate myself for saying all these but its really too much. yall find us irritating, we find it tiring too. we're not complaining when we have to travel all around singapore to get money from yall, and how the hell could yall complain so much when you're just slacking at home? is it that hard to stand up from your sofa and go to your wallet, take out 2 10dollar notes and give it to us? is it really that hard? if yall think that by paying up, you're doing your part, i would really want to give yall a tight slap on your face ok. if you've got eyes, or whatever you have, you would know that we're paying our twenty bucks PLUS planning everything AND buying everything. if paying is enough, we would be slacking at home, who would take the trouble to go around calling and saying "hey, can we go to your hse and collect money from you later?". yall are not paying AND not doing ANYTHING, so why are you blaming us for IRRITATING you? excuses, excuses, what else can yall say? yall doubt the way we're treating yall as squadmates, but do yall ever wonder, are yall treating us as squadmates? yall are the ones forcing us to this extent, we dont want to do all these but yall leave us with no choice, no choice at all. so what the hell do yall want us to do? yall dont give a damn do you? sometimes i really have the urge to slack okay. one for all, all for one what, yall want to slack, we can all slack together, we shall all kena together? is that what yall want? rubbish okay. if yall think this is a joke, lemme tell you, its NOT FUNNY. so just snap out of it and be serious, can you? next year we're gonna be year threes, are yall gonna continue being so childish? oh come on, GROW UP PLEASE. i really dont want to say all these, but if i dont say it all out, when will yall realise?

i used to trust both of you so much, i believed that yall will retain that passion. i thought yall were the hope, finally someone whom we can believe in. but both of yall gave me disappointment. i dont know what happened, what made yall who yall are now. but i really miss how yall were like before. one of you promised me, you wont lose that passion, but now, why cant i see that passion burning in you? you told me that you'll keep to your promise, you'll not change. but now, why did things change so much? maybe i shouldnt even get my hopes up right from the start, now that the disappointment is so great. everytime i reread your posts, it's not only heartwarming, its heartbreaking at the same time.

im in a bad mood, maybe not bad. to be exact, its out of disappointment and sadness.
i once thought that they were not that bad, but now thinking back, i see unfairness, i see injustice. why? why are we doing all these when some people obviously dont give a damn? i thought that we could stand all that, that one day, things will change for the better. but now, im losing the drive, its too much, too tiring. how are we supposed to keep ourselves motivated when people just keep disappointing us?

i really hope yall will read this. i dont mean to scold yall nor be rude or even trying to say that we are great while yall suck. im merely trying to say how disappointed we are, how sad we are now. we just need yall to understand that no matter how motivated we may seem, there are always times when we'll feel like giving up. we need yall to give us hope, be there to help us, so that we can go a longer way. that's the kind of squadmates we really need. no more excuses please.

心灰意冷、心酸、心痛、委屈、无奈，

你们懂得多少、感受过多少？

無樂不作　－－　范逸臣


source: http://cape7.pixnet.net/blog/post/19439802

想蒐集夏天的熱 穿越叫 幸福的河
想做吞大象的蛇
不自量力 說真的 又有何不可
我想寫歌

當 天是空的 地是乾的
我要為妳 倒進狂熱
讓妳瘋狂 讓妳渴
讓全世界 知道 妳是我的

天氣瘋了 海水滾了
所以我要 無樂不作

不要浪費 每一刻 快樂
當夢的 天行者

像妳這樣的天使 該有翅膀和名字
該美麗中帶著刺 該很認真的屬於 我一次

當 天是空的 地是乾的
我要為妳 倒進狂熱
讓妳瘋狂 讓妳渴 讓全世界 知道 妳是我的

世界末日 就儘管來吧
我會繼續 無樂不作
不會浪費 愛妳的 快樂當夢的 天行者

要快樂 OH～

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[edited @ /11.14pm]
just finished watching twilight movie online.
its cool k.
damn nice.
think i wont be watching it at theatres le.
dont wanna spend money.
anyone wanna sponsor me?
hahaha. just kidding(:
hmms. i want an edward too! (: