Friday, October 07, 2011

&he said, I, love you forever,

Forever and Always.

She's sitting at the table
The hour's getting later
He was supposed to be here
She's sure he would've called
She waits a little longer
There's no one in the driveway
No ones' said they've seen him
"Why, is something wrong?"

She looks back to the window
Suddenly the phone rings
A voice says, "Something's happened."
That she should come right now
Her mind goes to December
She thinks of when he asked her
He bent down on his knee first
And he said...
I, want you foreverForever and alwaysThrough the good and the bad and the uglyWe'll grow old togetherForever and always
She pulls up to the entrance
She walks right to the front desk
They lead her down a million halls
A maze that's never ending

They talk about what happened
But she can barely hear them
She tries to keep a straight face
As she walks into the room

She sits by his bedside
Holds his hand too tight
They talk about the kids they're gonna have
And the good life
The house on the hillside
Where they would...
Stay,Stay there foreverForever and alwaysThrough the good and the bad and the uglyWe'll grow old togetherAnd always rememberWhether rich or for poor or for betterWe'll still love each otherForever and always
Then she gets an idea
And calls in the nurses
Brings up the chaplain
And he says a couple verses
She borrows some rings
From the couple next door
Everybody's laughing
As the tears fall on the floor
She looks into his eyes and says...


I, want you foreverForever and alwaysThrough the good and the bad and the uglyWe'll grow old togetherForever and alwaysAnd always rememberWhether happy or sad or whateverWe'll still love each otherForever and alwaysForever and alwaysForever and always
She finishes the vows but
The beeps are getting too slow
His voice is almost too low
As he says...
I'll love you foreverForever and alwaysPlease just rememberEven if I'm not thereI'll always love youForever and always

Friday, September 02, 2011

《那些年 我们一起追的女孩》

所给的那些感动。

2008年7月24日。
在马来西亚买了九把刀的书,《那些年 我们一起追的女孩》。
2011年9月2日。
第一次把整本书完完整整地看完,每一行,每一个字都看得很仔细。

书买了那么久,每次读到一半总是中途放弃。
但是在看了九把刀导的同名电影预告,决定一定要把书看完。
一直到今天,终于看完了。

故事里充满了感动,期待到戏院看这部同名的电影。
(在 Youtube 上先看了电影的电视特辑,听着九把刀的介绍、心得还有最重要,拍这部电影的原因,不知怎么,感动得哭了。还有,看到柯震东那场哭戏,也跟着哭了。)

一部记载着青春的小说,一段真实的故事。
《那些年 我们一起追的女孩》

今年17岁,十年后回头想起现在的时光,会有什么样的感觉?






那些年错过的大雨,那些年错过的爱情。
那天晚上满天星星,平行时空下的约定。

也许在另一个平行时空,我们是在一起的。-柯景腾

Sunday, February 13, 2011

你最近還好嗎

你最近還好嗎 是不是也在思念裡掙扎 你說會記得我 還記得嗎
你最近還好嗎 忙碌嗎累嗎心還會痛嗎;如果真不得已忘了我 快向快樂出發...

Saturday, December 25, 2010

a day to count my blessings,

and to be grateful for everything I have.


Merry Christmas people! Time to recall my 3 weeks (well-spent)..

In a flash, things ended.
3 weeks of training ended.
On 18 Dec 2010, we officially POP-ed.

As I recall this 3 weeks, I thought, time really flies.
Just before the course, I kept wondering, how am I gonna bear through all this.
3 weeks indeed seemed long and scary.

The process was yet enriching and inspiring.
Made alot of new friends, gained alot of knowledge, got a deeper understanding of things.

Suddenly I was glad that I actually went for the course, aware of the responsibilities and duties that came along with it.

Residential Course 1 - HTA
We started off as 36, unfamiliar with each other.
Still remembered the day we walked into the drill shed, looking at the unfamiliar faces, trying to find the board which supposedly had our squad allocations.
Then, we finally went to fall in, got our allocations.
The first time I realise, I am part of Alpha Squad, together with all my Area 16 friends, and of course, with ky and zhengxiong (these were the few I knew then)
Really happy to be in a squad in which I know at least a few people.
On the first day, Alpha the duty squad, was bombarded with alot of information.
Met Instructors Ma'am LiLing and Ma'am JingHong.
Felt very blessed to have them as our squad instructors, very patient and forgiving Ma'ams.
Met my dearest Bunk 39 mates for the first time.
Other than Liyan, there's Linda (cute and high girl!), Tai-Tai Wei Jing, Sexy Hotpants girl Chun Hui, Grp I/C Jas, Awesome Nurul, Zai Amelia (She's Chinese!) and Thumbs-up Puay Ling :D
The 9 awesome girls totally made my stay in HTA (Y)!
Thanks girls ^^
Polishing boots at night, ironing uniform in the dark became things we had to do every night, but it was quite fun actually, amidst chatting about our day with our individual squads.
Slowly, got to know the rest of the squad, nice people like Syariff, Juliene, Geraldine, Nasuha, Ho Ming and many more.
Still remember how we were the first group to conduct foot drills 1 for the squad.
Thought Ma'am JH was being really lenient, 'cos I thought I kinda screwed up but yup.
Nonetheless, really fun to take lessons with Daniel and Juliene (:
Things got abit rowdy as we got to know each other more and was quite hard to shut the squad up at times, everyone wants to be heard that's why.
Meals at HTA was not bad really, just that portion was really huge, had to share with Liyan.
Thanks to all the people who helped collect food for us over the 2 weeks. (Especially the guys)
Remembered that our goal was to develop a Special Bonding? (Guess we did it somehow) :D

Residential Course 2 - HTA
Had a recharge of batteries over the weekend, spammed the whole world with updates about us.
And yes, we were back, to HTA.
Back to Bunk 39.
It was actually fun, waiting for the duty squads to open up our bunks at night, as we rush into our bunks, grab our stuff and chiong to the toilet down the corridor.
The best feeling comes only when you realise you are the first to reach the bathroom. HAHA.
Bathing at your top speed, afraid to choke up the queue and rushing back to bunks to queue for the iron.
Things were routine yet exciting each night.
Enjoyed the classroom lessons, where we recapped and got deeper knowledge of the hard skills that we have. Got to know alot of things I didn't know of, weird but it felt kinda of nice.
Still remembered the night we stayed up to study for CA2, together with UIA the next day.
Nearly died, adding to that, instructors inspected and made sure everyone was sleeping.
Woke up at 3plus to polish boots, iron uniform and last minute cram in stuff.
Everyone was tired but it was worth it.
The last night spent at HTA, I felt quite emotional.
Thinking that it was the last night we bunked together, last day we spend as Alpha Squad (technically not the case but ya).
All the memories we shared kinda of flashed back and things felt quite sad.
And yes, soon, RC2 came to an end.
Laid infront of us, our final challenge ATC.

ATC - Camp Resilience
At Ubin, when we reached, remembered how we sat around and waited for logi.
After tent-pitching, it was Camp Familiarisation.
It was then Popeyes came into action.
Although quite screwed up here and there but glad that Camp Fam had something done (:
Well done guys! (If not for Cat 1, it would have been more fun I guess)
Team Building Games was fun too, especially Jumping Two-Twos.
Had a great deal of fun, laughing like mad when Dylan with a slip of his tongue, made everyone's day.
Rafting was really fun, got to work with many of Popeyes.
Funny like crazy when we had to point and draw in mid-air and couldn't understand each other.
Unable to talk and without sufficient beforehand planning, really amazing how we could actually make a raft that floats and is really stable.
Although we were all sweating like mad in our dark long sleeved shirts and from all the pulling of manila hemps, it was really enjoyable.
Jokers like Hongjie, Kelvin and Weiquan made it really fun.
Land Exp was cool too, very well-planned out! (By Superman!)
Together we are Super Popeyes woohoo ^^
Went to Secret Garden, a few huts and also Rock Temple and the Pekan Quarry.
Got alot of new knowledge once again and learned alot about motivation and perseverence along the way.
Oh, and the German who owned the fish HAHA.
Nearly died at the last lap of the Land Exp (Marshal thought I was asthmatic .______.)
But had a great feeling, accomplishing yet another 4hours plus of land expedition.
ATC was tough but could have been tougher.
The countless meals of maggie mee, and 少到可怜的canned food together with Popeyes.
Thanks to all the guys who helped us with washing of our utensils and messtins :D
Will always remember the performance item by the instructors: 'Fireworks' by Katy Perry.
The deep meaning behind it (:
Campfire was awesome, thankyou Rangers! :D (Really liked Ranger's performance anyway)

Passing Out Parade (POP) - Unity Square
Was tricked by FI Azli, thinking that our parade was cancelled.
But really glad it wasn't.
Really glad it didn't rain, although it should have rained.
(Thankyou clouds!)
Everything was smooth and we all marched out in White, proud and smart.
It was a day we all waited for, training so hard for 3 weeks.
The day we held the M16, with bayonets, with white gloves, in No. 1 Ceremonial Dress.
It's a pity Alpha didn't pass out as 34, but we were 34-strong in our minds, in our hearts.
As my mum and my sis don the rank on my shoulder, I felt the weight, it was weighing down, as if telling me that hey, it is time.
This was it, I passed the last hurdle, with the help of many out there, thankyou guys.

As JX said, the hardest has yet to come. Now that I have cleared the first 3 weeks, the 2 years ahead is probably the main challenge.

Wanna thank a whole lot of people out there:
My parents and my jie -
For supporting me in everything I do, no matter what. Although I know my dad wasn't really keen on letting me go for it, but him waking up early every morning just to run and train with me for the course showed something. Thankyou daddy (: And thankyou mummy, for cooking delicious stuff for me over the weekend, for preparing me with all sorts of things like sunblock, counterpain ointment, insect repellent, anything you can think of. (: Of course, jie, for being behind me all the time, telling me to jiayou and stuff (And for taking care of my then dying cactus!). Love y'all :D

My squadmates -
Although most of y'all didn't say much, thankyou for the support. Especially for JX, Pris, OM, Oon, Van, Matt and Jovi - for giving me the utmost support, the affirmation, the encouragement, the strength to carry on. And of course, for fetching me from the ferry point, for the pleasant surprise at my door and all the sweet msgs. (: Thanks guys, never would be able to do all this without you guys.

My dearest clique (shyt-c) -
My dear 4 girls, never failed to give me the support and drive I needed, what I felt was never limited to just a msg, a fb comment. It goes a long way and helped me carry on from where I wanted to give in. Thanks girls, for being my continual inspiration and source of motivation (:

Kuanyuan -
For all the things you've done for me, be it in or out of course. You know it, so I don't have to name them. Thanks alot, I am grateful, really (:

Alpha -
For making CIBTC a wonderful experience. Never to forget you guys. :D Thanks for being there, and I'll try to be always around when you guys need me. Thanks for being my support and may y'all soar and excel, as great Sirs and Ma'ams (:

Popeyes -
A really cheerful bunch who made ATC very fulfilling. Went through all the sweaty times, did all the saikang together, shared funny moments. Even had a very original cheer for ourselves. Things will never be the same without any one of y'all so may Popeyes stay close and all the best guys! :D

As the course draws to a close,
I am gonna miss alot of things.
No more marching around as Alpha,
No more running around in white round neck tees,
No more late night ironing of uniforms,
No more studying with light from handphones,
No more anxious waiting for bunk keys to open bunks,
No more running at top speed to the toilets at night,
No more 'Hey, who got deodorant spray, can lend me?',
No more holding 3-4 cups of cordial drinks for the squad during meals,
No more 'Anyone saw my corporate bag?',
No more late night chatting in the bunks,
'cos we are no longer CITs.

D10, we have completed our 3 weeks of training, now it is time.
May all of us work hard and give back knowledge and values we have gotten from the corps.
'Aspire to Inspire before you Expire.'
'Success is not final, Failure is not fatal, it is the courage to continue that counts.'
Well done Sirs and Ma'ams of D10 (:

Thursday, November 18, 2010

a jog to perk myself up,

and probably give myself more energy.

Woke up at 5plus this morning and went for a morning run with my dad.
5 rounds around the neighbourhood, didn't time myself though.
Shall run again tomorrow.
Goal: 10 rounds, in 25min
(Shall achieve this before CIBTC which = run every morning)

As I ran, the wind surged past, mind went really blank.
Love it when I ran, don't have to think about anything for that 15min.
Just concentrate on my steps, on my breathing.
Very comfortable.

Although the road ahead may be very hard, but I guess I found my motivation to carry on.
It may not really last, I may fall again anytime, but at least, right now, I found the drive.

^Watching HP7 with jx and pris in ~2.5 hours! Yay ^^ 
Mahjong session after that :D

Wednesday, November 17, 2010

when you are lost,

without any confidence and all.

Had this feeling for quite a few times already.
Always manage to get over it very quickly.
Maybe go to sleep and the next day, everything's gone, no tightness in the chest, nothing.
Sometimes, a kbox session, let everything out and all's fine.
But somehow this time felt quite different.

It was so heavy, weighing me down.
Can't do anything about it.
In bed, thinking, thinking and thinking.
It was painful, yet no tears flowed.
Don't know what I should be feeling actually.

Lost all confidence, lost all directions.
I started to question myself.
Why, why do so much? For what, really.
If I don't even find joy, what's the point.
Maybe out of duty, yes, probably.
It's the commitment, I thought.

It is a very tough struggle.
But no matter what, its my own decision.
Nobody forced me into this, I did it to myself.

In times like this, I'm glad that y'all are around.
Sometimes, you don't need people to say you can do it, no matter what, you can do it.
You need people to tell you, no, you can't do it this way, you'll fail, but I know you'll try and you'll do better.

Maybe all along, all that I needed was affirmation, from alot of people, from you guys.

Tuesday, August 31, 2010

as we go through 4 years of secondary school life,

we look back, searching for the people back then.
&here we are, back together again on this day.


Nearly one school term since I last blogged.
Term 3 seems to pass the fastest among all, and here comes EOYs.
On this day, we celebrate Teacher's Day, concert was okay.
Had a great time laughing with yuning, hsiaotien, amanda they all during the ACES Day game.
Officially in Red House now, I miss yellow but oh well.

After concert ended, went to deliver present for Mr Oh.
Had a feeling that I can't really describe.
When we did billibanja around him, when we shook his hand and wished him happy t'cher's day, when he jokingly said hes touched and wanted to tear, when he joined us in cheering our unit cheer, RVNP.
Something sort of came back, I don't know, maybe it's just me.
Missed the times when he was around (technically he still is but ya), when we look up to him, greeting him proudly as 'SIR'.
Deep down within us, he wasn't just a teacher, not just another TO, he was a fantastic Sir, a Sir who deserved our respect and will always do.
All the contributions he had made for the unit, and especially for our squad, too much to mention.
rvnsps107 is where we are not just because of everyone of us in the squad, not just because of our dearest ICs (and NCOs), CIs, HOs and TOs but because of Mr Oh.
He was always there to capture all our moments in RVNP but shared little photos with us, a regret for us, in a way.
Really miss him and appreciate all the hardwork he has put in.
Happy Teacher's Day Mr. Oh :D and yes, RVNP SOLID SAH!

After that, went back to BLG (but didn't go inside) with Claire.
And went to meet Kangjing and gang at JP LJS.
Ate lunch. Many were back, me, Peiling, Claire, Huixian, Jolene, Sheihli, Guakrong, Daniel, Kangjing, Ezor, Ceksin.
Although lunch was pretty quiet but all it matters was we had lunch together (:
Miss laughing like mad at the way KJ and Sheih 'quarrelled', Jolene's laughters.
Suddenly everything started coming back, guess I really miss those times too.
Went for soccer after that, was watching, like before. (:
Everyone seemed to have grown up, yet there was still something that didn't change.
Can't really pinpoint the exact thing but ya.
Laughed really hard and had lots of fun, took quite some photos too.
*Photos taken today uploaded on fb (:


4 years after we've graduated from BLG.
Went to different schools, met new people.
I believe everyone changed, in one way or another.
Grown up, maybe is the word to use.
Suddenly, secondary school life's coming to an end, another graduation approaching (not for us but well..)
After months and months without talking to each other, there was this barrier.
Maybe we felt like strangers, quite sad, to think that we were so close back then.
But somehow after awhile, things got better, was easier to talk.
Maybe next time we should go somewhere, sit down and really just chat.
Catch up on each other's life and stuff like that.
Hope that we can still keep in contact no matter what (:
Shall organize more outings end of the year, and hopefully with more outings, we can close in on the distance between us.
Thanks alot to everyone who came, for today. Had a great time, it was nice to recall those memories back then, in contrast to the present, remind each other of all the random and crazy moments we shared in the past.
Here's wishing everyone all the best for Os, and those without Os, jiayou for EOYs, and those without either, jiayou with... life. (sounds lame but ya)
31 August 2010. 6/7'o6 (:
sixseveno6, together forever.