when you are lost,

without any confidence and all.

Had this feeling for quite a few times already.
Always manage to get over it very quickly.
Maybe go to sleep and the next day, everything's gone, no tightness in the chest, nothing.
Sometimes, a kbox session, let everything out and all's fine.
But somehow this time felt quite different.

It was so heavy, weighing me down.
Can't do anything about it.
In bed, thinking, thinking and thinking.
It was painful, yet no tears flowed.
Don't know what I should be feeling actually.

Lost all confidence, lost all directions.
I started to question myself.
Why, why do so much? For what, really.
If I don't even find joy, what's the point.
Maybe out of duty, yes, probably.
It's the commitment, I thought.

It is a very tough struggle.
But no matter what, its my own decision.
Nobody forced me into this, I did it to myself.

In times like this, I'm glad that y'all are around.
Sometimes, you don't need people to say you can do it, no matter what, you can do it.
You need people to tell you, no, you can't do it this way, you'll fail, but I know you'll try and you'll do better.

Maybe all along, all that I needed was affirmation, from alot of people, from you guys.