Just when you feel like

you're the only one who's feeling upset about life,
think again.

I really don't know what's wrong with my life,
everything's real screwed up, everything.
maybe its my fault, i really don't know.
things had never been easy, but it was still manageable.
when did everything get out of hand? i really have no idea.

maybe im in the wrong, probably.
maybe cos i don't know how to be a good friend,
how to treat those around me like i should.
3.5 years and now life smacks me in the face,
telling me that i don't know how to be a good friend,
friends are leaving one by one.
tell me, what should i do,
or rather, what can i do.

had a talk with my cousin,
now i know, im not the only one with friendship problems,
im probably one out of alot.
maybe im not going through the worst afterall.

things that came to my mind was,
why vent your anger on me,
i have no idea why you're angry, so whats the point of venting everything on me?
and also, if you think you're the only one going through real tough times, think again.
sparing a thought for others, thinking before you speak,
things that you should be doing for a friend, are you doing it?
it's never okay to hurt someone and feeling guilty and full of regret after that if you keep doing it over and over again.
trust, friendship, bond, a word to describe, delicate.
hard to build up, easy to break.

i've never once wanted to hurt anyone,
but now i think back, i've probably hurt alot of people.
maybe i really don't know how to be a good friend.

life is real screwed up,
people care, but they don't understand.
need someone to understand.
cos crying alone at night doesn't help, at all.